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A. Keyser

sehnsucht​

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So Fresh, so clean

10/7/2018

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            George Stephens is a textbook curmudgeon. He avoids all human contact whenever possible. On the rare occasions he has to speak to another person he utters grunts instead of words; and every sentence ends in the addition of his catchphrase, “and stuff.” Most conversations soun like this: “Mr. Stephens, I’m calling to inform you your electricity bill is still unpaid.”
            “Ahh, ugh, I’ll, uh, pay it and stuff.” Usually these conversations left the person on the other end more confused and less confident their message had been received.
            His personality may be grating, but his appearance is down-right offensive. 400 pounds ago he would have been considered overweight, now he barely manages to wobble around. His legs and arms resemble bursting sausages, with diabetic wounds oozing in a constant state of half-healed ichor. He no longer showers, leaving every crevice packed with dead skin cells and solidified sweat. Unemployed, and doing odd-jobs to get by, George exists in a constant state of detox from alcoholism. When he has money, he buys cheap Canadian whisky by the gallon. Unable to ration himself, he drinks away his money faster than he can earn more. His body shakes from withdrawals or drunken tremors, and most never knew which it is.
            George Stephens is a man on the edge and he can’t take it anymore. He pawns his TV to buy one last bottle of booze and a cheap revolver. He sits in the darkness of his one-bedroom apartment listening to an old radio. His favorite songs from the 50’s and 60’s are playing on a local “oldies” station. He tips the gallon jug back and drinks the contents straight. His throat is scarred from years of smoking, drinking, and hungover vomiting; and the alcohol no longer burns when it goes down. He feels a comforting warmth in his belly, but that’s it.
            The whisky does its job, and after a quarter of the jug George gets the tell-tale dizziness that hearkens a blackout. On the edge of consciousness, George raises the semi-rusted Colt revolver to his head and pulls the trigger; finally ready for eternal darkness. The hammer clicks, but there is no explosion. “Dammit,” George mutters. He fumbles with the chamber release and checks to make sure he loaded the damned thing. Inside, shining bright, are six bullets ready for the slightest urging to fly out and destroy. George replaces the chamber, aims the gun, and shoots at a dying potted plant. Instantly, the gun reports and the ceramic shatters, spraying dirt and pottery on the wall.
            Too sober to try again George continues drinking from the plastic jug. He tosses the gun onto a coffee table and it lands perfectly in the center of a collection of water rings permanently staining the tabletop. On impact the gun fires and lodges a bullet in the wall just above George’s head. “Seriously?” George says, both in disbelief at how easily the gun fires now, and how the bullet couldn’t do him the favor of finishing what he couldn’t.
            He lays his head back, mouth full of whisky, thinking maybe he’ll accidentally drown. Eyes closed and with a mouthful of cheap corn liquor, George hears the radio switch from The Doors Hello, I Love You to a commercial. Hey you! Yeah, you! The pathetic sack of fat and crap trying to off himself on his threadbare couch. Cut it out, will ya? George’s head shoots up, the motion forcing the alcohol still sitting in his mouth to flow into his sinuses and causing an excruciating burning sensation.
            That’s better dumbass. Now, listen up because we’ve got a deal for you. Do you find yourself struggling with body image, confidence, and general wellbeing? Of course, you do, you’re a fat, pathetic slob with no job and an addiction to the world’s worst type of booze. But I’ve got a solution for ya. So Fresh, So Clean will wash away all your unwanted bodily features and make you into a person you can be proud of again. Want to know more? Call 1-800-SO-CLEAN to order now and you’ll receive a travel size of So Fresh, So Clean free of charge; only pay shipping and handling. So, call now, that’s 1-800-SO-CLEAN. 1-8-0-0-S-O-C-L-E-A-N. Don’t live another day the way you are.
            George doesn’t believe what he’s hearing. He stares at the radio waiting for someone to come on and say April Fools, or at least “Gotcha”. Instead the radio speaks again, I’m waiting moron. Reach in front of you onto the table. George does as he’s instructed, surprised to find his phone sitting there. Good. Now, dial the number. Wait, let me guess, you’ve already forgot. Okay, one more time, 1-800-SO-CLEAN. George begins punching in the numbers searching for the numerical equivalents of the letters. Yes, good job. Oh! What’s this I hear? my phone is ringing. “Hello, thank you for calling So Fresh, So Clean, how may I help you today?”
            George hears the voice on the phone and a half-second later on the radio. “Haven’t you ever called into a radio show before dumbass? Turn off the radio!” the voice commands. George jumps at the sudden derision and fumbles the phone before dropping it. He stretches his arm to the radio and flips the power switch.
            “Pick up the phone George,” the voice says, though George is hearing it faintly from a few feet away. He wriggles and squirms his body to reach the phone, but his mass doesn’t allow for much bending. Finally, he lays down on the couch and by letting his arm dangle off the side of the cushion he grasps the phone.  
            “Uh, hello. Who, ah, I mean, what’s this? And stuff,” George says into the phone.
            “This is your lucky day George Alan Stephens. I’m off – wait, do your initials actually spell G-A-S? Even your name is disgusting,” the voice says, cackling with delight. “Okay, back to it. I’m offering you a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity to change everything you hate about yourself with no effort on your part. Sounds good doesn’t it? It appears you aren’t a fan of trying.”
            The shock is wearing off and George gets the sense this voice is mocking him. “Hey, just a, a – second now. I don’t like the way you’re treating me and stuff. What is this?” George says.
            “Didn’t I just finish explaining this? Let me try starting from the beginning. I represent Wash-A-Way, LLC., a limited liability shell corporation that sells questionable products to the consumer market. Today I’m calling to offer you our newest product, So Fresh, So Clean. It’s a proprietary blend of…stuff, that allow the consumer to wash away the unwanted features of themselves,” the voice says on the other end of the line. Immune to tone and context, George doesn’t pick up on the exasperation oozing from every word the voice speaks.
            “How does it work?” George asks.
            “Ah-ah-ah, George. That’s a secret. But I can tell you’re intrigued. I’ll tell you what, since we’re becoming buddies, you say yes to an order right now and the first batch is on me,” the voice says.
            “Yes?” George says.
Before George can continue and ask what he’s saying yes to, the voice jumps in, “Great! I knew I could count on you George Alan Stephens. I’m putting you down for one bottle of So Fresh, So Clean. And don’t forget that free travel size bottle. Great for erasing blemishes on the go.” The words escape in a torrent and while George’s booze-addled mind tries to keep up the line goes dead.
            “Hello?” George says to the dead line, “Are you still there? When, ah, do I get my bottle and stuff?” An ancient sounding dial tone answers on the other end.
***
            George awakens the next morning with a faint recollection of a strange night. His dry eyes open slowly, and he blinks a few times to get the moisture back into his over-worn contacts. He sees the gun lying on the table and eyes is curiously. With immense struggle George lifts himself from the couch and turns around. He is eye level with a bullet lodged in the wall just above where his head had been. “What did I do last night?” George mutters to himself. “Guess I drank too much, and stuff. Wait, where the fu-f-f- hell’s my TV?”
            Running a hand through his few remaining hairs, George manages a half-way stretch and yawn. He walks to the kitchen and fills an old cottage cheese container with water and takes a long drink. Years before, when George did the same thing around his then-wife, he explained, “there’s no sense buying special cups when we have dozens of containers just lying around.” She hadn’t seen the same sagacious wisdom in that statement as George, and later that day she bought a lovely set of cobalt blue drinking glasses. The same glasses George later shattered when he threw them at his wife’s head during an argument. That was the night she took their only child, his son, and left for good.
            Not used to admitting mistakes, George still bears the burden of losing his son. How old would he be now? George wonders. Got to be in his late 30’s or early 40’s by now. He shakes his head trying to remove the memory, but it still lingers deep at the base of his mind; a quiet voice reminding him, “Pathetic. You abandoned your son.” The voice, George’s oldest friend, often reminded him of his countless failures and shortcomings. “You’re an obese nobody. If you died there would be no one to miss you. You can’t hold down a job. You’ve failed at every undertaking.” The voice could be a real dick, but its familiar presence keeps George company.
            The voice always brought a friend too, a dark curtain that closed over George’s eyes and mind. If he didn’t shut the voice up it kept going until George passed out; the curtain completely drawn. A whistled rendition of the first few notes of Yankee Doodle came from someone knocking at George’s door. Saved this time, I suppose, George thinks.
            He waddles to the door and turns the handle. Outside is a small, brown package set perfectly in the center of his welcome mat. “Ugh, I have to, uh, bend down, and stuff?” George mutters. He drops to one knee, perpendicular to the door’s opening. Then, he bends sideways and just manages to grasp the package. “Already down, might as well, uh, stay awhile,” George says. He drops to his other knee then slips onto his butt. Sitting in the open doorway, fat rolls spilling over onto the floor, George rips open the package.
            Inside are two bottles. One large, roughly the size of a 1 liter of coke, George thinks; the other is tiny, the size of a nail polish bottle. George also sees a folded piece of paper tucked inside the package.
To: George Alan Stephens,
On behalf of Wash-A-Way, LLC I would like to thank you for your recent purchase of So Fresh, So Clean, our newest product. Thousands of people around the world have seen their lives forever changed by our product and I truly believe you will as well. The results are spectacular, but the instructions are anything but. To use, simply replace your normal soap with our patented blend of astringents, oxygenators, and dehumidifiers. After a single use you should see those unwanted features washed down the drain. Wish you had a full head of hair like you did in high school? Simply wash your head with So Fresh, So Clean and like magic I guarantee that hair will grow back. Sick of an unsightly appendix scar? Wash your stomach and watch the scar slough off like dead skin. Wish you were more charming? We all do! Just wash with a little So Fresh, So Clean and soon you’ll have more charisma than Charles Manson (his endgame may have been questionable, but the guy had game). Thank you again for your order of So Fresh, So Clean. We look forward to hearing how So Fresh, So Clean changes life for you. *No refunds, credits, or exchanges will be offered on used merchandise. All sales are final.
            What the sh-sh-shi-heck is So Fresh, So Clean? George wonders. He looks on the box for any other distinguishing marks but finds none. A neighbor passes by George’s door at that moment and says, “What have you got there George?”  
            “I, uh, don’t, um know. Think I must’ve got it on some infomercial last night, and stuff,” George says.
            “Well, whatever it is, have fun,” the neighbor says before continuing down the hall. I guess I might as well give it a try, George thinks. What’s the worst that can happen? In just over twenty-four hours George would come to find he couldn’t imagine the worst, even in his darkest dreams.
***
            George flipped the switch in his bathroom and a single, bare bulb struggled to illuminate the cramped restroom. He took a lone step forward and pulled back a moldy shower curtain. Inside the cracked porcelain tub a spider attempted to climb the side and escape the permanent green puddle of stagnant water that lingered there. George turns the tap to the perfect temperature from memory and flips the lever to run the water through the head.
            The spider struggles in the flow for a moment before washing down the uncovered drain. George raises a foot and wavers for a moment then steps into the scalding water and closes the curtain. His hands are trembling as he turns the bottle of So Fresh, So Clean over and over. Gazing at the logo with a fully clear head, brief memories of last night pop through.
            The gun wouldn’t fire, George recalls. Shit! I tried to kill myself last night. And then I heard something on the radio. Did someone on the radio make fun of my name? Then I said “yes” to something and now this package is here. What the hell? “The letter didn’t sound too dangerous though. Maybe I should give it a whirl,” George says.
            He flips the bottle upside down and pops the plastic cap off. He squirts a small pool of the soap in his hand, the familiar scent of Irish Spring soap filling the shower. “Let’s wash away this fat, and stuff,” George says as he struggles to reach every part of his body. He nearly pulls a muscle reaching crevices and under fat rolls he hasn’t touched in years. His breathing becomes shallow, almost hyperventilating, with the effort.
            A pleasant tingling sensation races across his skin that soon turns to a deep burning. When George coached basketball, he used Icy/Hot every night and the sensation feels similar. The burning intensifies, just as Icy/Hot does, and George expects any moment the cooling relief will come. The cooling never comes. Instead, the burning intensifies and George screams as he rubs at the fat covering his body. Instead of soap and water, George’s hands come away greasy and full of a gelatinous substance. Looking down George finds the entire tub is filled with a similar ooze. “What the fu-fu-shit!” George screams.
            It’s a strange anomaly in the human mind that we block out the most obvious facts when under enormous stress. As the body and mind flood with hormones urging us to fight, fly, or freeze, we stop paying attention to reality. Like a soldier under fire, we only see the danger directly ahead of us. If George had taken a moment to evaluate his situation he would have noticed he’d lost roughly 400 pounds of pure fat, and in its place toned muscles had developed.
            Instead of understanding his situation, George gave into the darkness that lingered at the back of his mind and passed out. He slumped forward onto his knees, and sunk waist deep in a tub full of rendered fat. He then fell to the side, draping his body over the tub’s edge like a bathmat. Whether from terror, exhaustion, or confusion no one could say, but George slept that way for three hours. While he slept, the fat that once held his body prisoner oozed down the drain.
             Later that afternoon George stands naked in front of his bathroom mirror. The shock hasn’t worn off, but his new body is alleviating some of it. He had ab muscles, one for each of his six decades on this earth. His chest is swollen with strength. Each inhalation pulls in a lungful of fresh oxygen; a sensation George didn’t think he’d ever experience again. An impressive set of genitals bulge from just below his waist. George couldn’t remember the last time he’d seen his penis, much less the last time it had throbbed with power. “I’m a gr-gr-Greek statue,” George says. He strikes a few comical poses doing his best Charles Atlas impression. Before leaving the bathroom, he snaps a solitary photo of his penis, “that might c-c-come in handy,” George says.
            He leaves the bathroom and rummages through his closet for anything that might fit. His shirts look like dresses now and there is no belt in the world that could synch his pants tight enough. He finally lands on a pair of his ex-wife’s sweatpants he’d mistakenly grabbed when moving out, and a short-sleeved button-down Hawaiian shirt. His comically large shirt and old-fashioned ladies’ pants made him look like a deranged clown but would do until he could get to the store for new clothes.
            George’s doorbell rings, and he walks to answer. Through the peephole he can see a woman in her 40’s whom he does not recognize. Her red hair and tall frame form a striking figure, even through the distortion of his peephole. George opens the door slowly and stutters out a “hello”. Instead of responding the woman bursts out laughing.
            “What are you wearing?” she asks. “You look like you’re on layover coming back from Maui.”
            “Umm,” George begins to say before being cut off.
            “I’m sorry, that is so rude. Sometimes I speak before I think. I keep meaning to stop,” the woman says.
            “Who are you?” George says.
            “I’m Eve, but everyone calls me Evie,” the woman says, sticking out her hand. George does not take it. Evie awkwardly lowers her hand before continuing, “I’m your new neighbor, sort of, I just moved in down the hall. I thought I’d try and meet all my neighbors today. So…hi!”
            This time George takes her hand and shakes it once, formally. The human contact makes him uncomfortable and excited at the same time. “We-welcome. The Dunport is a nice apartment building, unless you li-li-like reliable amenities, and stuff,” George says gruffly.
            “Yeah, what’s up with the water around here? Mine comes out in a trickle,” Evie says
            “You should probably call the landlord then,” George says, then adds, “my name is George by the way.”
            “You’re a strange man George. Very strange. But I like a little mystery. It’s nice to meet you,” Evie says before moving down the hall and knocking on the next door.
            “You won’t get an answer th-th-there,” George says. “Mrs. Lindstrom is deaf. She won’t hear you knocking. Ring the doorbell and it’ll light up a strobe light in her living room.”
            “Thanks George. Hey, do you want to come with me? You seem like the kind of guy who could show me around,” Evie says.
            “Yeah,” George says, “I think I’d like that.”
***
            George lays in bed with Evie, struggling to understand what happened. They were out walking around the building. Then, they found the street, a cute Italian restaurant, and before George could question anything they were kissing and walking back along the same route. In a single instant Evie appraised George’s apartment and deemed it acceptable. She didn’t say anything about the bullet hole in the wall, the shattered plant, or the cottage cheese tub half filled with water. Together they walked to George’s bedroom and shared a night together.
To George it felt like his first time all over again. It had been years since a woman touched him, and many more years since one had wanted his touch in return. George fumbled with her bra which only elicited a laugh and an impressive feat of contortion by Evie to remove it herself. He hadn’t lasted long, but the connection was explosive. George fell in love with this fiery-haired goddess. And George guessed Evie felt the same. At least, he hoped she does. But years of insecurity don’t just wash away. He may have a great body now, but there is plenty more he would change. So, he does.
George rolls over and kisses Evie. Her hair is disheveled, and strands stick to her forehead. He brushes the stray hairs away and whispers, “I’ll be back soon.” In the bathroom, George gazes at himself in the mirror once again. “What does she see in you?” George whispers to himself.  He lifts patchy strands of hair from his own forehead and tries to cover his bald spot with creative hair placement.
            In the mirror, George sees his bottle of So Fresh, So Clean sitting in the shower. He warms the water and flips the lever from tap to shower head. George wets his head and rubs the soap in. The same agonizing burning rips through his scalp. He feels needles pushing through the skin and screams. George rubs his head and tries to rip the burning skin away. Instead, he feels hair growing. Despite the pain, George smiles.
            Back in his bedroom Evie’s already familiar shape is missing. “Evie?” George calls, leaving the bedroom and searching the rest of the small apartment. “Where did she go?” George wonders, not sure of the etiquette in this foreign situation.
            George dresses quickly, pairing over-sized jeans with a jean jacket; an outfit his son would have called a Canadian Tuxedo. Around the corner is a small diner that serves greasy breakfast and still allows smoking inside through a legal loophole. George orders chicken fried steak, extra gravy, fried potatoes, and black coffee. He lights a cigarette and casually picks at his food. Lost in memories of the previous night, George swears he can hear Evie’s laugh. Raising his head George sees Evie having breakfast with another man.
            “Hi E-E-Evie,” George says, approaching the table, “who is this?”
            “Oh! Um, hi George,” Evie replies. Her voice squeaks with the Oh, but she regains her composure. “What are you doing here?”
            “Eating breakfast. I thought w-w-we would have done that after last night, and stuff,” George says.
            “What is this guy talking about babe?” the man across from Evie asks.
            “Um. Nothing. He got drunk last night after showing me around the apartment complex and I helped him get to bed. Nothing serious,” Evie replies. She fidgets with her napkin, tearing it into smaller and smaller pieces.
            “No, Evie. We had sex last night,” George says bluntly. “Do you not remember?”
            “Are you kidding? I’m married! I would never sleep with you. And besides, I don’t go for bald guys. That wig isn’t fooling anyone,” Evie says.
            “Let’s go babe,” the man says, grabbing Evie’s hand and pulling her from the booth. “Listen up, buddy. I don’t know what kind of sick fantasy you’ve made up about my wife but stay the hell away from her.” In his new form George has about six inches on the guy, and at least fifty pounds. One well placed punch would have knocked the heroin-thin guy into the next booth. But George does nothing.
            “S-So-Sorry,” George mutters. He stuffs his hands in the pockets of his denim jacket and shuffles out of the restaurant.
Outside, Evie says, “I’m sorry George, I-uh, I don’t know what to say,”
            “It’s fine,” George says back. He walks the half-block to his apartment building confused. “I know physically I look good,” George says to himself, “maybe the problem is inside.” George grabs the letter that came with his bottle of So Fresh, So Clean and reads it again. “More charm than Charles Manson, he was compelling,” George says.
            The magic of So Fresh, So Clean is confounding but undeniable. George reads the bottle and letter several times looking for clues on how to use it in the way he wants. “What do I want?” George wonders. “I would like to not st-stu-tutter, and be better with words. I wanted to lose weight so I rubbed it on my fat. I wanted hair so I rubbed it on my head. Maybe I should try rubbing it in my mouth.”
            George opens the bottle and moves it toward his face. The astringent scent of bleach stings his nostrils. “I can’t eat this shit,” George says. Already though, he is bringing the bottle toward his face again. With one hand George pinches his nostrils shut. With the other he tips the bottle back. A small dollop of clear gel drips from the cap and falls on his tongue. The now familiar burning starts instantly. It feels like a hole is burning through his tongue.
            He is coughing, then gagging, and finally vomiting. Blood and black liquid fly from his mouth and mingle on the stained rug of his living room. Once again, the transformation is overwhelming and George slips into blackness.
***
            Sometime later, George is awake and has cleaned up. His tongue hurts like he sipped a too-hot drink, but he can speak again. “Let’s give this a shot,” George says triumphantly. He marches to Evie’s apartment door and knocks three times; quick, confident raps with his knuckle. “Evie, it’s George. Can we talk for a moment?”
            Evie cracks her door and whispers, “what are you doing here George? I thought I made it clear I didn’t want to see you again.”
            “I think we both know that was for show this morning. Your husband was there, you had to make it look convincing. Great job, by the way,” George says, winking.
            “It wasn’t for show George. He is here right now. Look, sleeping with you was a mistake. He and I were fighting. We’re doing this trial separation thing. I was confused. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you,” Evie says.
            “Come on Evie. Don’t talk like that. We had fun yesterday. We can keep having fun,” George says. He begins forcing his way into the apartment and Evie tries to hold him back. “Besides, I don’t think that husband of yours is really here.”
            “George, please get out. I don’t want to do this. I thought you were a nice guy,” Evie says, “but you’re not. You’re being an asshole and I want you to leave.”
            George stops pushing on the door suddenly, and Evie’s weight forces it shut, catching her fingers in the crack. “Ouch! Damnit George. Just get out of here!”
            “Fine. I’ll leave, but I’m not done. I don’t know what you want me to be, but I’m going to figure it out and become that person. You just wait, Evie. You’ll be mine,” George says.
            He walks back down the hall to his own apartment and throws the door open. “Fuck! What does that bitch want?” George yells. He sees the bottle of So Fresh, So Clean sitting on the coffee table next to the revolver he never bothered moving. George strips off his clothes and stands naked in the middle of his living room. He pops the top on the bottle and pours its entire contents on his head, allowing the gel to run down his face all the way to his feet. The gel is both freezing and burning and it envelops George like a glove.
            Without a clear picture in his mind, the mysterious soap makes the changes to George it sees fit. The flesh melts from his body revealing musculature and bones. His eyelids are gone, and the brightness of the morning sun stings his eyes. Tears don’t come though, and his mouth is dry, like all the water in his body has been boiled away. One foot grows too large and the other falls off leaving a stump. The now-visible muscles on George’s back and biceps swell to body-builder size before bursting into disconnected chords of meat and tendon.
            George falls to the floor and scrapes his exposed flesh on the rough rug. He reaches for the phone and hits redial. A familiar voice, silky but harsh, speaks on the other end. “Thank you for calling So Fresh, So Clean. This is Wormwood, how may I help you?”
            George speaks slowly, every word is painful to express. “Your soap is killing me,” George says.
            “Oh, hey Mr. G.A.S. Does your life still stink?” Wormwood says.
            “I’m dying,” is all George can muster.
            “Yeah…I probably should have warned you about that. This product isn’t exactly ‘safe’,” Wormwood replies.
            “What. Do. I. Do?” George whispers into the phone.
            “Sorry pal, there’s nothing to be done. Best just to ride it out or end it quicker,” Wormwood replies.
            “Why did you do this to me?” George begs.
            “It’s nothing personal Georgie. I find weak people who would do anything to be someone else. Even if it means selling their soul. You seemed desperate,” Wormwood replies.
            “My soul?” George says, questioning his own sanity.
            “It’s kind of what us demons do. Buy souls, trick people, cause chaos. It’s tough work but somebody’s got to do it. When we spoke on the phone you entered into a verbal contract; and using our product equates you agreeing to the terms. Your soul is ours buddy boy,” Wormwood says.
            “Bullshit,” George spits out.
            “Listen George, I have to get going. My boss is starting to look at me funny for talking so long. I expect your arrival down here within the hour. I’ll be there to get you acclimated to your new home and get you on the phones selling; just like me.” Wormwood says.
            The line goes dead.
* * *
            George opens his eyes and sees a reflection of his body; his old body. The image is distorted, and George realizes he’s seeing himself in a set of elevator doors. A soft dinging pulls his attention to a single lit arrow pointing down. The doors slide open and George is greeted by a man dressed in khakis and a tucked in polo “Hello George. I’m Wormwood. It’s great to finally meet you.”
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The Four Horsemen

10/7/2018

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An explosion detonates making the warehouse shudder and the windows shatter. Shards of glass fall to the ground, showering three men. 
    "Turn the TV down, Elijah. I'm on the phone," Alexandra barks from her office. 
    "Seriously Mom? It's Supernatural! Sam and Dean are trying to stop the apocalypse," Elijah yells back.
    "I don't care what they're doing, it's too loud!" Alexandra shouts. "As if those two boys could stop the apocalypse," she said quietly to herself. "I'm pretty sure if the apocalypse started we'd all know, and no one would be able to stop it."
    Alexandra didn't realize at the time she shared that sentiment with billions of people. They were all wrong.
                                                                                                                    * * *
    "Hello, brothers and sister," a shrouded figure said. Reaching up with a shriveled hand, the figure brushed back his hood. His pallid face stretched into a smile that reminded the other's present of a grimace. "Have any of you seen the news lately? It appears one of us has been busy." The slight grimace turned unmistakably into a broad smile. 
    "What are you talking about, Famine? We don't have plans right now. What have you been doing?" Death said.
    "You know we work in a group Famine. If you've done something to tip the scales in your favor, you could be bringing about Armageddon; and it isn't time," War said.
    "I know it isn't time. I simply had a little fun," Famine said with a chuckle. Turning in his chair, Famine pressed a glowing button on a remote control to start a paused news broadcast.
A recent study by the USDA into how likely crops are to survive in the next fifty years has shown shocking results. Lead scientist Theodore Grabage said, 'due to recent changes in weather patterns, over-planting, and increased chemical usage, vegetation is struggling more than ever to thrive in this hostile world. We expect in the next 50 years the only plants that will grow will be inedible.' The study goes on to show unless environmental factors and consumer behaviors change this planet may be nearing its end.
    "Damnit, Famine!" Pestilence exclaimed. "What did you do?" He rose from the bare wooden chair he perched on and strode across the room. A single light bulb lit the cramped dining room where the four siblings conversed, casting bare shadows on the hardwood floor. 
    "You've only given them fifty years Famine? You've forced our hand. Is this like last time when they simply needed to genetically modify crops to survive? Have you given humanity any hope at a solution?" War said. 
    "There's always hope for humanity. Isn't that the whole shtick with God? He can do anything? Maybe I just caused a global crisis of faith. Maybe God will be happy to help when everyone starts begging," Famine said.
    "You know that isn't how this works," Death said quietly, staring at the paused image on the television. "You have left us no choice Famine. This is the end."
The room grew still except for the constant bouncing of Famine's legs against the bottom of the table. 
    "You were the first one made, Death, and you'll be the last of us alive. What do we do?" Pestilence asked.
    "I need time to think. I'll be back," Death said. He passed through the only door in the room and found himself in a hallway with doors branching off at even intervals. Slowly pacing the hall, he heard the sounds of life all around. Children cried, mothers yelled from their kitchens that supper was ready, Mickey Mouse's unmistakable voice squeaked from TV speakers. 
    Death, despite his name, found great joy in life. He was the first of the horsemen created during the time of the great uprising in Heaven. Death's face twisted in rage as he thought the name Lucifer. If not for that bastard Death would never have been born; or whatever it is God did to bring Death forth.
    From the start existence pained Death. He took no joy in his role, bearing it stalwartly but with a strong sense of self-loathing. Why must I be the one to rip these beings from their lives? If it were up to me, they would go right on living as long as they wanted. And that was the kicker, Death knew. Eventually, everyone greeted him; some with terror in their minds, and others with serenity. 
    Death learned to drown out the sound of the living. It pained him too much to know the joy he would one day take away. It hurt worse though knowing this world didn't care much about Death anymore. He paused his stroll to listen at the door of an apartment several doors down from his own. 
    Inside, a young boy, no more than thirteen Death guessed, shouted at someone or something. "That's right you piece of shit! Die! Die! Die! I'm glad you're dead."
    Death waited a moment for the familiar tingle he felt when called to end someone's life. He smiled for just a moment at the secret only he knew, everyone who had ever died, died by his hand and no one else’s. If not for death, people would continue forever.
    The warm tingle didn't come. Death pressed his ear closer to the door and heard faint clicking. Is that the sound of a gun misfiring? Death wondered, but it wasn't quite right. Then realization dawned. This boy sitting on the other side of the flimsy wooden door was committing digital murder. Likely "killing" a stranger from the other side of the world on a game like Call of Duty or Grand Theft Auto.
    Death felt anger growing deep in the pit of his stomach. He preferred the anger to his true feelings, resignation and sadness. Without thinking, the anger took control and Death burst through the door. 
    The apartment looked like the one he shared with his brothers. Stained hardwood floors covered a living room and kitchen. Grime and grease coated the laminate cupboards and counters, illuminated by a single overhead light that had long since lost its shade. 
    Sitting directly in front of Death was a boy holding an Xbox controller and wearing a headset. It was into this device he screamed those hateful words. 
    Perhaps the anger he felt toward Famine finally reached the surface, or maybe it was simply this child's callous attitude toward death. The reasoning didn't matter to Death though, he simply began berating. 
    "What are you thinking speaking to another person like that? Do you know this person whom you are so callously telling to 'Die! Die! Die!'? Do you really want that person dead? Is their life not worth anything more to you than a casual comment meant to reduce them beyond existence?"
    Stunned, the boy's mouth dropped open. People couldn't just barge into his house, could they? "Screw you, asshole," the boy spat at the intruder, with more venom and bravado than he felt. Then, seeing the rage in the man's eyes the boy changed tactics. "MOM!" he screamed into the next room. 
    A woman waddled from the one bedroom wearing a grimy white t-shirt and shorts 4 sizes too small with the word "Juicy" written across the back. "Who the hell are you?" the woman said, holding a burning cigarette in one hand and a small revolver in the other. "I should shoot you right now. I have the right you know. This is America. If you trespass on my property I get to take your life."
    Now it was Death's turn to stand agape. Looking at the woman, he felt no fear of the weapon she held. Only one thing could hurt him, much less kill him, and that thing was not a Ruger GP100. No, the thing that scared Death was the words she chose. 
    "Did you say you get to take my life?" Death asked the woman.
    "That's right asswipe. I get to take your life, and unless you are out of my house in the next three seconds, I'm going to exercise that right with a big fat smile on my face," the woman responded. Without responding death turned and walked back through the door and turned the corner just in time to hear a single report and see the wood across the hall explode with the impact of the .357. 
    Death continued to the end of the hall, choosing not to listen to anything happening behind the remaining doors. Descending the stairs, the same familiar sadness he'd felt the last few years welled up, and tears washed away the anger he'd felt moments before. Don't these people understand the gift they've been given? To live, and laugh, and love? Death mused, realizing he sounded like one of those inspirational wooden signs couples hung in their first homes.
    Why would anyone think it a pleasure, a gift, to take another person's life? That young boy wanted to kill whoever was on the other end of that headset, and his mother wanted to kill Death. When did life become something so easily thrown away?
    He sensed society's belief changing from a desire to protect life, to a desire to protect one's own interests. If a person wanted to buy an assault rifle and murder dozens of children at an elementary school, that was their right these days. And there were thousands of people willing to fight for that right tooth and nail. In the days following those tragedies people often remarked we should have stricter gun laws so innocent children didn't die while learning long division, but inevitably the conversation would stall until the next person decided it was their right to murder 60 people at an outdoor concert. Then the whole cycle repeated. Forever, and ever, amen. 
    But Death knew the answer to his own question even before he asked it. He had made them numb to death.
    In Death's younger days he operated with the same vigor and short-sightedness that Famine recently displayed. With a thought he caused Mt. Vesuvius to blow and eradicate two thousand lives. He brought up tsunamis and hurricanes to drown sailors and coastal communities alike. With a few well-placed suggestions from him and his brother, Hitler's little tantrum went on to claim over sixty million lives. 
    Much like those same Nazis, Death had simply been following orders. Every action was part of a master plan he had been assured when he struggled with the order. After all, if two thousand was a lot of lives, how could one even categorize sixty million?
    Those same orders had now created a world where the machine of death ran itself, like a perpetual motion device. Death hadn't lifted a finger in over fifty years, yet millions still died every year. Death simply had the duty of cleaning up the messes.
    Lost in his own mind, Death didn't see the man in front of him and their shoulders bumped. Death turned to apologize but before he could get a word out an older man with disheveled hair who reeked of piss and Canadian whiskey yelled, "Repent! For the Kingdom of God is at hand. We live in the end of days foretold in Revelations."
    Death smiled, even daring to let out a chuckle. "Trust me, buddy," Death said, "when the apocalypse happens you won't have any idea."
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    When Death rose from the table, the other three siblings were shocked. Sure, he had shown some strange signs in the past few decades, but nothing like this. Almost as though he no longer found joy in his calling; even if it had become trivialized in the last few years. Hell, it was less common to see a local news report cover an exciting holiday festival, than to see the face of a rapist and murderer on the 5 o'clock news.
    At the slamming of the front door, War rose from her chair and yelled, "What is his deal? He's been so sullen lately. I need to go cool off." She left for the single bedroom and slammed the door behind her, and as an afterthought shouted through the wall, "it's all your fault he's like this Famine."
    She sat down at the plastic folding table that functioned as her desk. Papers littered every visible surface, even obscuring the ergonomic keyboard and mouse. "What is all this shit in here? Pestilence are you too lazy to put your stuff away?" War needed to blow off some steam. 
    In the past, she would have started a fight somewhere and watched the inherent hatred in everyone spill out. Nothing serious, just a gang war here, a husband beating his wife there. But times were changing. The media would have everyone believe these criminals who participated in violent wars were getting smarter; now gangs shared drug drop locations via coded messages on Twitter. 
    War knew the truth though, people were just getting lazier. Like a scene out of Wall-e, most Americans could be found lounging in some sort of repose with their eyes glued to two or three different screens at once, all forcing entertainment directly into the mind. "Warriors" hadn't gotten smarter, they just couldn't be bothered to fight anymore.
    Always ready to fight for her beliefs War found an entirely new outlet for her aggression; the Internet. War double clicked the browser icon, and 20 different windows appeared showing news outlets, social media sites, and celebrity gossip pages.
    For the next hour, the only sounds to be heard from the bedroom were the furious clicking of a mechanical keyboard, and the occasional laugh. Pestilence and Famine knew their sister was hard at working waging her wars. 
    War logged into the local news page and found the top story, "Dozens dead in latest robbery attempt". Perfect War thought, smiling. She jotted off a quick comment, seems like if we had better gun control these kinds of things wouldn't happen. No one needs an assault rifle to protect their home. Idiots. Then War quickly logged off and wrote a comment back to herself anonymously, whatever you Libtard! Just because you're afraid of guns doesn't mean the rest of us shouldn't get to play with them. Besides, these people are criminals, do you really think they wouldn't get their hands on guns one way or the other? Try thinking for once, moron.
    With these keystrokes, War began a fight that would sustain her appetite for days. Instantly new comments began pouring in. As they usually do, the comments started respectfully and with coherent arguments; but they devolved into personal attacks faster than War had ever seen.
    War's scowl dissolved as she moved from website to website spewing hatred and inciting the masses to argue over meaningless trivialities. It seemed people were eager to trade written jabs over the validity of Kim Kardashian's career, whether our President is a secret Russian Nazi or not, and what the best episode of The Simpsons is.
    "This is almost too easy," War murmured, her scowl now replaced by a predatory smile. "It's like these idiots can't wait to start fighting. All I have to do is give them the smallest of shoves."
    She leaned back from the keyboard, brushing a stray wisp of her red hair away from her pale face. War looked to her left and saw her own reflection staring back at her from the mirror perched atop an empty dresser. A hollow pang of longing echoed through War as she thought of her old personage. 
    She had once been the strongest of her siblings. In the early days, she wore a shining suit of armor perfectly contoured to her body. She brandished a mace forged from heavenly metal and used it as her baton to orchestrate violence on a global scale. Time marched slowly, and she found herself trading in the armor for a more refined Kevlar vest. The mace set aside in favor of a concealed pistol. 
    Even then War's frame would have struck fear into anyone who saw her. Cords of muscle rippled beneath her milky skin with every movement, a promise that she could, and would, hurt anyone who stood against her. Her flaming red hair served only to strengthen this impression of a powerful, otherworldly entity out for blood.
    Those who delighted in bloodshed found themselves drawn to War's dangerous beauty and built monuments to her. They worshipped her form and her function. Now though? She barely recognized herself in those monuments. Her skin had grown grey, no longer possessing the milky glow she expected. Her muscles waned from non-use, leaving her body a doughy bootleg of what she once was.
    Still, War smiled though, if only for one reason; her hair. What had once been a brilliant auburn now shown like neon. A vibrant mass of red and orange that seemed to feed on the constant stream of LED light she basked in. These are the only wars I get to fight anymore, War lamented. The real wars, the fun wars, are being taken care of quite nicely without any input from me.
    War turned back to her computer screens, resignation weighing her shoulders down, and typed away once again.
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    Inspired by his sibling's exodus Pestilence sat down to write. "They are as crazy as the rest of the world," Pestilence said, smirking. 
    He pulled a yellow legal pad from a side table and sat down on a low couch. A cloud of dust blew up around him and motes shone in the light. The swirling mass reminded Pestilence of the brain. He pictured an illustration of synapses firing electricity from neuron to neuron. 
    Looking back to the paper Pestilence wrote at the top of the page Anxiety and its relation to physical akathisia. Unknown to his siblings Pestilence had been using their behavior as a springboard for ideas. Anytime they exhibited odd behavior Pestilence wrote it down. He made up some numbers to appease the scientifically minded and submitted article after article to journals with names involving psychology and psychiatry. 
    In this way, Pestilence had succeeded in diversifying his abilities. He no longer rode the backs of rats in cities spreading the bubonic plague. His rats were these journals, and the unfortunate victims were the doctors who read them.
    Since beginning work on his magnum opus, Pestilence had seen it grow from a slim volume only one hundred years before into a tome well over one thousand pages. The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders was Pestilence’s pride and joy. He stroked the spine of each book when he saw it in a bookstore. Sometimes he even pulled it from the shelf and cradled the tome like a child.
    Those old plagues never got me excited like this one Pestilence thought to himself. "Depression and anxiety, my two favorite things," Pestilence whispered. "They're great! General enough that everyone can be diagnosed; specific enough to make sufferers wield their diagnosis like a weapon." Looking again at the top of the page the word akathisia tickled at Pestilence's memory. Squinting his eyes, Pestilence attempted to remember why that word felt familiar. 
    Paging through his own copy of the DSM-5 Pestilence found akathisia and realized he'd already written on this subject years ago. "Dammit! It's like there's nothing left to write about," Pestilence said, slamming the book shut and tossing it on the couch next to him. Pestilence realized War would have enjoyed seeing her brother's outburst and got all the more frustrated for it. None of the siblings were on the best of terms, and he hated knowing he was acting like her. 
    Pestilence picked the book back up off the couch and leafed through the pages. Every idea that popped into his head had already been committed to medical science. Have I really come up with every kind of mental disease there is, Pestilence wondered? "The real problem is I did too good a job," Pestilence muttered. "I can only take credit for a little over half of what's in this book. Those damn doctors got it into their heads they could start creating diagnosis on their own, and they've worked me right out of a job. Maybe it's time to go back to the rats."
    He threw the book on the side table along with the legal pad and flopped down on the couch. Straining to think of a new disease to create but knowing deep down he had finally reached his limit. 
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    The only light in the room had been turned off hours ago. Famine sat in the darkness watching the news. As the youngest, Famine craved his sibling's approval. Unlike them though, he had not diversified his abilities. War stopped inciting global conflict and instead worked to covertly inspire hatred and aggression. Pestilence stopped spreading diseases that simply killed, and instead convinced the world they were all special, even though they all suffered from the same thing. Even Death had grown sullen. He had never reveled in his role like the other siblings, but he did it none the less. Now though, Famine got the impression the world had forgotten Death and felt a pang of loss on behalf of his older brother.
    Death barged into the dining room from outside. The noise woke Pestilence who stirred on the couch and rose. Death called into the next room, "Sister, please come here. I have something to discuss."
    The siblings were once again gathered under the harsh light of a bare bulb hanging over the dining room table. "I've come to a conclusion and must apologize for what I said this morning. Famine, I was wrong to say you pushed our hand. Walking through the city today I realized you haven't forced us to begin the Apocalypse, because the Apocalypse has already begun," Death said, his voice monotone as if he had practiced this little speech too much.
    Always the first to react, War said, "What are you talking about? The Apocalypse doesn't start until we say so. I mean, isn't that our job? Our sole purpose for existing?"
    "I don't mean to argue with you Death, but I think War is right. How can the Apocalypse have started already," Famine said?
    "Look around. Watch the news. Is there anything we could do that would make the world worse off? War, when is the last time you started an actual war? Pestilence, the best you can come up with is making most people think they have a very mild malady, so they can get some drugs? Famine, even you did nothing wrong. Humanity's food source was depleting quickly. At best, you pushed them ahead a couple years. This world is fucked, and let's face it, these animals did it to themselves," Death said.
    Everyone sat in silence for a moment relieved to have their own deep thoughts vocalized by their de-facto leader.
    "So... what do we do," War asked quietly?
    Death manifested a scythe, now appearing as a cliché version of the Grim Reaper. “Let’s help them get where they’re headed a little faster.”
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Symbiosis

11/6/2015

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​              It had been some time since all my senses fired simultaneously. I think the last time was at a Pink Floyd laser light show in my 20’s, but my memories about that night are a bit hazy. So many adults go through life numb to the experiences happening all around us, not realizing our deceptively short amount of time on this earth could be bettered by slowing down to appreciate each of the things sparking our senses.
             Scuba diving in Thailand was an entirely unique experience for someone as boring as me, and I wouldn’t soon forget it. The smell and taste of the salt water reminded me of all the childhood summers I spent at the Oregon coast searching for sand dollars and playing in the sand. The constant “whoosh” of the ocean’s tide sent memories of my first time coursing through my mind; that incredible night camping with my girlfriend on the beach in Cancun during spring break. The gentle tickling of the anemones against my arms and legs as I swam felt like the first time my newborn son reached out and held my hand, his tiny fingers brushing the hair on my arms.
              Most striking though were all the colors. Radiant yellows, pulsing blues, neon green, ochre, fuchsia, white, pink, purple, every color was represented in this underwater rainbow. The clownfish darting among the tendrils only increased the colorful array.
              On the boat back to shore a tour guide told me in passing the clownfish and the anemones take care of one another. The clownfish protect the anemones from predators and parasites, and in return the anemones use their stinging tentacles to ward off larger predators of the clownfish. He used the word symbiosis, and I realized I’d never heard a more beautiful word.
              I thought of my wife and our children. Aren’t we all looking for someone to live in symbiosis with? To find that one person we can share our lives with and protect, and in return they trust and protect us? It seems too easy all we need to survive is someone to live in symbiosis with, but perhaps the true path to happiness has been in front of us the whole time.
              I arrived home the next day and held my wife close as I told her about my trip. I told her the story about the anemones, and symbiosis, and what it all meant. She looked at me, kissed me softly, and said, “I’ll always take care of you, if you always take care of me.” She understood it too. Next time I’m in Thailand I’ll have to say “thank you” to the beautiful anemones for saving my family.  
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Skýeyjan

10/30/2015

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     The Chief of the village told the people stories every night while gathered around the fire. A mysterious illness had broken out among the villagers and many friends were passing away in the night. Without a cure the Chief hoped to ease the villager’s minds with hope from cheerful stories. This night he shared the story of a mysterious island continuously wreathed in clouds.
     “When I was young, just a boy like many of you, my father’s father, who was chief at that time, told our village the story of a mysterious island to the west. He called the island Skýeyjan, which means Cloud Island in our tongue. It is said this island is a large mountain and is always encircled in clouds so no one sees the top. This in itself is a miracle, and it is said, if one climbed to the top of the mountain they could touch the moon.” The Chief continued the story of how his grandfather had first found the island and brought back the mystery to share with his village.
     There was silence as the story ended. All on this island believe the moon is a man named Máni, and his brother, the sun, is called Sól. Andsvarr, a young man, whose mother and father had recently died approached the Chief and shyly asked, “Is the story true?”
     The Chief had a kind heart and cared for his people. He knew this child hurt. He said, “Many would believe it’s just a story. Certainly my father considered it a myth, or the crazy ramblings of his father. I however think anything is possible. Isn’t it better to be happy believing anything is possible, than bitter thinking nothing is?”
     The boy smiled. It was nice to have someone share the same sentiment he carried in his heart. He asked, “Do you believe Máni lives at the top?”
     “We have many beliefs on this island, and I believe they are all true. Máni lives, and it’s just as likely he lives at the top of that mountain as anywhere else,” the Chief said. The boy thanked the Chief and left for his family home, now empty.
     Andsvarr’s father had fished each day providing for his family, and he often joined his father, learning the ways of fishing and the sea. For a boy of only 13, many of the villagers considered him more adept on the sea than his father had been. As Andsvarr approached his house he saw the large fishing boat moored behind it and a plan began to form. Perhaps he could sail to the island in the story and ask Máni for help. Since the villagers died at night, surely Máni must know why.
     Andsvarr decided he would leave the island tomorrow, find the fabled island, and ask Máni for help. He packed food, clothes, and maps, everything he would need to sail across the sea. At dawn’s first light he climbed into the boat and slipped out to sea. The water stayed calm for the first day, but late in the night the waves grew and crashed over the small fishing vessel. Andsvarr held on to his bunk as the boat swayed back and forth at the mercy of the sea. He closed his eyes and prayed through the night.
     He must have fallen asleep at some point because he awoke the next morning to the sound of his boat scraping against rock. He rose above deck and saw a short, rocky beach that rose steeply into a mountain. As his head continued to rise he saw clouds encircling the mountain in an otherwise clear sky. His heart beat faster and a smile stole across his face. He had found Skýeyjan.
     Andsvarr tied off his boat and started to climb the cliffs. Finally he would find the truth. In the foothills the climbing was easy. He kept his pack securely on his back as he walked, slowly rising higher. Doubt clouded his mind as he travelled. Perhaps he had been foolish to come on this journey. Certainly he had been foolish to not tell anyone he was leaving. What if he fell while climbing the mountain? Would anyone find him, or would his body turn to carrion or be carried off into the ocean? He shook his head, trying to clear the thoughts. It certainly did no good wondering such things now.
     His ascent gradually grew more difficult. What had started as a brisk walk on the beach had turned into scrabbling over boulders. As Andsvarr looked ahead he saw the true challenge. About 300 feet ahead the earth rose sharply creating a sheer rock face that disappeared into the clouds. The clouds had once held such promise and optimism for Andsvarr, now they only represented danger and fear.
     Andsvarr made camp at the base of the steep ascent. The sun had passed overhead a few hours ago and now set on the far side of the mountain. “If Máni lived atop this mountain he would be arriving home soon,” Andsvarr thought. Stars slowly appeared and Andsvarr occupied his mind identifying constellations. He quickly fell asleep hopeful and anxious for the next day.
That night Andsvarr dreamed. He dreamt of the moon and his village. When he awoke the next morning he remembered nothing of the dream except the renewed sense of purpose and optimism he felt.
     Andsvarr pulled the rope from his pack and began the slow climb up the last of the mountain. Within a few minutes he had entered the clouds surrounding the peak. Inside the clouds the air grew heavy and thick, and Andsvarr felt he might faint. He climbed slower and slower, hands and feet growing unbearably heavy. The last dozen feet took him several hours to traverse. The moon had just risen when Andsvarr’s hand found grass instead of rock. With the last of his energy he lifted himself onto a plateau; Andsvarr had reached the peak.
     He collapsed on the ground exhausted from the climb. He slept for a short time but this high up the air was too cold to sleep comfortably. Andsvarr woke later in the night and slowly rose to his feet, surveying his surroundings. It was perfectly clear on top of Skýeyjan, though he could not see through the clouds to the horizon.
     Andsvarr walked the perimeter of the peak growing less hopeful with each step. At the beginning of the journey he had hoped to find a temple or home atop the mountain. Now he just hoped to find an easier way down. When he arrived back at his starting place Andsvarr sat on the edge of the landing letting his feet dangle off. He didn’t hear the man approaching behind him.
     “Hello Andsvarr, welcome to my home. It has been so long since I had visitors, at least two generations. I am delighted to meet you.”
     Andsvarr turned to see a young man, just a few years older than himself, and stared. “Could this be Máni?” Andsvarr wondered.
     The man reached out his hand and asked, “Would you come with me? I still have much sky to cover this night, and I would love your company. This job gets so lonely. We could talk on the way.”
     Andsvarr reached out taking the man’s hand, and they instantly flew into the night sky.
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Status

10/28/2015

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​     The flashing green alert woke me from my sleep just after 4:00 A.M.. I rolled over to see my wife’s status flashing green with a smiling face, representing happiness; she must be having a good dream I thought. I still couldn’t get used to these StatusBubble(TM) displays.
     In the mid-21st century the largest social media companies had merged, forming a mega corporation. A few months later they unveiled the newest technology in social media, real-time status displays.
     No longer did a person have to “tweet” or update their status. Instead a small microchip read brain signals and shared what the person was thinking and feeling through a holographic display just above their heads. It also had the capabilities to upload moments seen through the eyes as pictures and videos, as well as a host of other features. Some people smarter than myself had even figured out how to hack into the devices and make them do just about anything.
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     As the 21st century continued, more and more people shared every facet of their lives online. These websites had started as a means for communicating with friends and had slowly evolved into something sinister. It wasn’t uncommon for people in 2015 to sit in groups of 10 or more not speaking to one another, but texting, tweeting, Instagramming, and Snapchatting. Some psychologists, and most parents, feared the generation brought up with these tools would lose the ability to communicate face-to-face.
     And so it was 15 years later. There were no secrets anymore. A person could look at anyone’s status around them and know exactly what they were thinking and feeling. One of the unforeseen consequences was the elimination of crime. Everyone knew what you were planning all the time, making it difficult to kill or rob. These status bubbles also eliminated the need or ability to lie. It has always been known 90% of communication is non-verbal; but now that the non-verbal was projected wherever we went, everyone was forced to tell the truth.
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     I was one of the few who opted out of the installation when it was offered free in the late 2030s. I had never been one to voluntarily broadcast my every thought and action to the world, and certainly didn’t want a machine doing it for me now. People like me were called Harkbackers, because we yearned for a time before this constant broadcasting of thoughts and emotions.
     I enjoyed being out of the mainstream. I didn’t want to be defiant, but had never been one to follow trends. Because of this, the news that evening sent a chill down my spine. The President announced he had signed into law a rule stipulating all American citizens were required to have a StatusBubble(TM) device installed. He believed it would be the death knell for all crimes and he looked forward to a country where everyone could live without fear. Just as I rolled over to go back to sleep I heard a banging on the door. I knew what this was and I slowly rose and dressed, resigning myself to my fate.
     By this time tomorrow I would be one of the masses. 
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The fiddle

10/25/2015

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     The young girl cried over a coffin as it slowly lowered into the ground. Her siblings spread out around her, three boys and two girls. After a short illness their mother had expired at the age of 34. Now they were officially orphans destined for the poor house, indentured servitude, or living on the street; none were sure which the ideal outcome was.
     The Vicar finished his homily, sprinkling dirt on top of the grave. The grave diggers would finish filling the hole later. With tears streaming down her face, the youngest daughter, Elizabeth, ran from the spectacle. In just 8 years of living she had lost her father, two siblings, and her mother. The rain soaked her wool dress as she continued running. She knew what was coming. A girl her age would be sold to a family as a maid, and she would stay there until she died.
     As she ran, the rain lifted and her surroundings became unfamiliar. She had spent too much time in the graveyard beyond the city, meant for those not wealthy enough to be interred inside London’s walls. As her journey continued, fiddling reached her ears. It was a lively tune, a reel she guessed; meant for dancing and celebrating. The joyful music met her aching heart with resentment. She fell to her knees and wept.  
     Through eyes blurry with tears she watched a stranger approach. He held a fiddle, though it no longer sang.
     “I’m sorry to interrupt your misery, but why are you crying?” the man asked. His eyes were kind, and his bushy eyebrows made Elizabeth smile for a moment.
     “My mother just died. And my father is dead. And my brother and sister are dead. Without parents I’ll be sold to a family as their servant.” The words poured out of the young girl. She hadn’t realized she needed another person to share her sadness, but now she felt lighter. Perhaps it was good to share bad things with others, as well as good things. “Would you play me a song? I heard you play a reel earlier. It was nice.”
     “It was nice, wasn’t it,” he mused to himself. He now spoke directly to Elizabeth, “Would you believe it wasn’t a reel, but a lament? My family believes everything should be a celebration, even death.”
     “That seems funny,” Elizabeth said, “How can death be a good thing?”
     The man brought the fiddle into position and began to play another song. “Those that pass away never leave us forever. They have left a mark on you and your life forever. I’m sure if you look closely you can see your mother everywhere.” The music grew louder, more insistent, like it was urging Elizabeth to act. “Would you like to come with me? I could bring you and your family together again.”
     Elizabeth felt herself rising from her knees. She stepped toward the man and reached out her hand. The song stopped abruptly as he reached for her. Their hands met and Elizabeth instantly felt safe.
     “What is your name?” Elizabeth asked.
     “My name,” the man said, “is Patrick Sullivan.”
      Elizabeth’s eyes widened, “that’s my Uncle’s name. Are you Rose Sullivan’s brother?”
     “Of course I am!” the man nearly shouted, excited at her realization. “I recognized you instantly, though I’m sure you don’t recognize me. It’s been many years since we saw each other, you were still a baby.”
     Squeezing Patrick’s hand and smiling, Elizabeth said, “I’d be delighted to come with you.”
                
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Seaside Serendipity

10/23/2015

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     “Looks like rain,” James Ronson IV said, “you better take this umbrella just in case. Ronson’s Umbrella Stand had stood on Basendorf Beach since the early 1920’s when James Ronson I, an expatriate from Cardiff, moved to California. He had hopes of becoming an actor, but didn’t have “what it takes” according to the directors of the time. He opened an umbrella shop as a way to survive.
     “How do you know it will rain?” asked the customer.
     “I’ve spent every day in this shop since I was 5, learning how to run this business. Staring at the horizon every day, one starts to learn the ways of the weather,” James responded, mysteriously. James IV was not like his father or grandfathers. Where they considered the bottom line and keeping the business afloat, he used it as a means of meeting new people and contemplating the world.
     Each generation had added to the original business. James Ronson II started selling kites alongside the umbrellas. James Ronson III added swimwear, surfboards, and snacks. James Ronson IV, much to his family’s disappointment, had added nothing. This didn’t matter to James though. He sold enough merchandise to keep the business running, and didn’t have the stress of worrying every minute of every day like this father.
     He did have one worry though, he was getting older. James IV was approaching 30 quickly and still didn’t have a family of his own. He often wondered if he was meant to have a wife and children. Certainly his job wasn’t glamorous, and his tendency to stare off into the distance for hours wasn’t appealing to everyone, but mustn’t there be someone out there for him?
     The customer left the shop with his free umbrella, and a few minutes later light rain began to fall. James smiled to himself, happy to have helped a wayward traveler, imagining the man opening it just in time to protect his wife from the rain. He had just stepped into the back room to grab money to pay for the umbrella when the bell over the door rang. James popped his head out from the curtain blocking the back room from the store and was greeted by the most beautiful face he’d ever seen. James had always believed in love at first sight, unlike the rest of his family, and he knew at once he was in love.
     “Hello, welcome to Ronson’s Umbrella Stand. My name is James Ronson, is there anything I can help you with?” James asked, smiling.
     “Hello Mr. Ronson, my name is Amelia. There is something you can help me with actually. I hope this doesn’t sound strange, but I saw you through the window earlier and you haven’t left my mind since. I hope I’m not being too forward, but would you be interested in getting lunch next door?” Amelia asked quickly, almost all in one breath.
     James smiled, picking up his wallet and keys. He walked toward Amelia extending his arm. “I would be absolutely delighted Amelia,” he said as they walked out of the shop together.
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The battlefield

10/22/2015

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     ​The battle had been raging for months. Each side’s forces were exhausted. Early during the war there was ground to be won. Each side moving closer to their goal. Now it was a fight of inches, not feet. What began as a free-for-all had been reduced to sitting and waiting, hoping the politics and gossip would lead each side to victory.  
     The king of gossip was Jensen. He was in the boss’ office now spreading lies about Jared’s sales performance. Jensen and Jared had been vying for the corner office for months now. Both believed they should be offered the office, and the position it came with. In typical office fashion however, they had been pitted against one another for the betterment of the company, and the detriment of themselves.
     Jared and Jensen were friends once, before the war tore them apart. Jared had been the one to get Jensen the job in sales three years ago. They had helped each other along the way, sharing leads to ensure each other’s numbers stayed exemplary. When their boss retired though, and it was announced one of the sales team would take his job, the friendship ended. Now each spent their time sabotaging the other’s sales calls, sharing false leads, Jensen even siphoned the gas out of Jared’s car one night so he’d be late for work the next day.
     The fighting had grown so disruptive that the temporary boss called both into his office and said the shenanigans had to stop. So now the fight was about subterfuge, undermining each other’s credibility in the hopes one would finally be given the promotion. It appeared that day may have finally come.
An email came through from the boss addressed to Jared and Jensen asking Jensen to meet at 8:00 the next morning, and Jared at 8:30. Each side was exhausted and secretly hoped someone would get the promotion so the fighting could stop.
     The next morning Jensen arrived to the office early so he could pick up the boss’ usual breakfast as a bribe. Jensen walked into the office right at 8:00, bagel and coffee in hand, and sat down across the desk from the man who held the future in his hands. “Jensen, I’m not one for small talk, so let me just say, I have impressed by you the past few months. It takes a real talent to be so destructive of one’s co-workers without raising any suspicion. That’s what it takes to make it in this business.”
     “Thank you sir,” Jensen said, “does that mean what I think it means?”
     “I believe it does. I’d like to offer you the position of Vice President of Regional Sales. As I’m sure you know, that position comes with the corner office,” the boss said with a grin.
     “Thank you sir,” Jensen said, keeping his excitement in check, “I’ll begin moving my things in immediately.” Jensen left the office and headed back to begin packing his desk. He looked at the peace lily Jared had given him on his first day of work, and saw Jared sitting down at his desk. Without a word, Jensen lifted the peace lily and, walking right by Jared’s desk, he went straight to his new corner office. Locking eyes with Jared, he dropped the plant in the nearest trash can then slowly closed the door. 
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Pride

10/21/2015

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     “I’m sorry sir, but you can’t check out any more books until you’ve paid the damaged book charge. I understand you say you didn’t damage it, but you were the last one to check the book out, and it came back without a cover.”
     The man in front of me looked disheveled and flustered. His fraying coat hung loose across his shoulders, and he was stuttering out a reply.
     “I-I-I can’t a-a-ford th-thirty dollars to r-r-replace the b-book. I swear I d-d-didn’t hurt th-the book.” His shame of being accused of hurting something as precious as a book was obvious.
     Everyone in the library knew this man. His name was Wendell Hanks and he lived down the street from the library in a tent on the grounds of an old elementary school. He had been fired from his job in telemarketing when he developed a stutter as a result of a car accident. The doctors told him they didn’t discover the brain lesion until too late and he would have a stutter for the rest of his life.
     His wife left him a few months later saying she couldn’t be married to someone unemployed and with so many disabilities. At the time it was harsh, but Wendell knew she was right. She got the house in the divorce, and with no means of support he ended up living on the street. The library was his last bastion against the world. He used books as an escape from his life.
     “For the last time Mr. Hanks, unless you pay the fee I can’t let you check these books out. There are patrons waiting behind you, so can you please step aside and let me help them?” The librarian said. She was new here, and didn’t know Wendell. Her dismissal hurt him deeply. A tear begin to build in the corner of his eye, and with a long breath and head hanging, he left the books and began to walk outside.
     “Wendell wait,” I called, “what’s the problem?”
     “They s-s-say I destroyed a-a-a book. I would n-n-never do th-that,” Wendell replied.
     I stared at the librarian as I said, “I know you wouldn’t. I don’t think anyone here likes books more than you, not even the librarians.” Wendell’s face lit up with relief that someone believed him. I pulled out my wallet and slid the librarian my credit card. “Please put whatever charges you say Wendell accrued on that. No one should be denied the joy of a library, especially someone who needs it as badly as Wendell.”
     The librarian ran the credit card, and after a couple minutes typing on the keyboard Wendell’s account had been cleared and he was on his way with his books. He turned to me and said with a genuine smile, “Thank you so much. You have no idea how much this means to me.” 
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Insecurity

10/21/2015

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     After a two hour flight and an hour waiting in line for the rental car, Jocelyn and I were finally on the way to her mother’s house. She lived in the desert in one of the mini mansions that older folks retire to hoping to heighten their status when they have no real means to do so.
     It was my first time meeting Mrs. Greene. I had met Jocelyn’s father a few months before at his home in Michigan. Her parents had divorced several years prior, relieved to end a marriage that had been failing for years.
     The home, for all its false status, was beautiful. A stone façade and perfectly manicured lawn greeted guests, and inside everything was in its place. It was perfect, like a model home where no one lived.
     Now that Jocelyn and I were married and settled into our first home together, her mother had asked her to get all her childhood things out of the way so she could add a wine cellar to the garage. The plan was to go through everything, take what was most important and throw away the rest.
     Mrs. Greene greeted us at the door asking about the flight and what we’d like to order for dinner. We made small talk for a couple minutes, but soon Mrs. Greene got bored with the conversation and said she had to leave to run some errands.
     “Should we start going through your things? The sooner we finish the sooner we can get out of here,” I said.
     Jocelyn replied, “Definitely, the less time I have to spend here the better.” We headed out to the garage and spent the next couple hours going through old pictures from family trips, school reports, and clothes that hadn’t fit for years. In one of the boxes marked “WINTER” Jocelyn found an old coat, one of those puffy North Face jackets that everyone seems to love in college. As she lifted it from the box a letter fell out. She quickly picked it up and tucked it away.
     “What’s that?” I asked.
     “Oh, it’s nothing. Probably just a credit card bill or something, it’s still under my mom’s account” Her tone made it clear she wanted me to stop asking questions. I let it go and we finished going through the last of the boxes. We made plans to leave the next day, not wanting to spend any more time than strictly necessary.
     That night I couldn’t get my mind off the letter. Jocelyn wasn’t a secretive person which made the earlier exchange even more suspect. I finally got up and snuck to the garage. Jocelyn had tucked the letter in one of the boxes to be recycled. I dug around for a couple minutes finally finding the letter underneath some high school homework.
     The front of the envelope was postmarked just a couple weeks ago, but I didn’t recognize the return address. My hands shaking, I slowly opened the letter and started to read:
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“My Darling Jocelyn,”
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